there are really sarcastic things that happen these past few days…

i’m just really really sad…everything I hoped for had just fallen away…

expecting from someone to understand you, is like suicide…

besides you cannot please everybody…

even the very special persons in your life…

it’s really painful…

it felt like I was already on hell…

sarcastically speaking…

literal meaning…

from now i am least expecting to be understood by everyone…

they are not in my shoes anyway…

how could they know…?

darn even if I would say my feelings..

if they won’t open their mind…

and lose their selfish pride…

nothing would go right…

we can’t change these things anyway…

i don’t know when or where to start…

but for now…

I am really sad…weary…

In my life…

I guess the best way to describe it is that…

its a boulevard of Broken Dreams..

hmmm…ang lame lang ng buhay ko ngayon…hindi na kami yung tulad ng dati..ito siguro yung sinasabi niyang "RADICAL CHANGES"…ewan ko ba…hindi ito yung naisip namin dati na relationship…siguro nga kasalanan ko yung mga nangyari..siguro ako yung tipo ng tao na minsan lang magkamali, pero sobrang palya talaga pag nagkamali..at take note nagmumukha akong tanga, di kasi ako gumagamit ng utak hehe, naa-absent minded lang…shu-nga in short…

wala akong mgawa kundi malungkot para sa mga nangyari, hindi nya siguro alam kung gaano ako nahihirapan sa lahat-lahat…

yung feeling kasi na parang iiwan kana, yun ang pinaka-mahirap na maramdaman, kahit na sabihin mo na kayo…parang hindi mo na maramdaman yung tulad ng dati…siguro nga hindi lahat ng bagay stays permanent in our lives..people come, people MAY GO…hindi ko alam…pero umaasa ako na hindi nya ako iiwan…kasi siya na yung buhay ko ngayon…

isa na sya sa mga dahilan kung bakit ako nandito ngayon, kung mawawala pa siya hindi ko na alam kung saan pa ako pupunta…sa lahat kasi ng pinagdadaanan ko at napagdaanan ko, lagi na lang ako iiniwan…what’s new?!

hindi ko alam pero sa ngayon ito na yung tumatakbo sa utak ko, pati sa puso ko…

nakakamatay yung sakit…promise…

hmmm…duty na hanggang 11pm na po…wula lang…madami pa ksi aong dapat gawin eh…mga bagay na dapat ayusin bago maging kumplikado lahat…kaso, mukhang di ko maaayos…i guess we just cant please everybody… ewan ko ba kung anong problema, ugali ko lang talaga…panginis kasi eh… nung nagsabog ang diyos ng pagiging manhid eh nasalo ko na lahat…ayun…

hindi lang ako masya sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko…hmmm…

pati si best aalis na…eh siya na nga lang yung kaibigan ko dun eh, amp naman, pero in all of the things that just happened in the last few years eh, siya yung nandun, di sya nawala, di nya ako sinaktan…di tulad ng ginawa ng ibang tao… hehe…. ang drama,..siguro namimiss ko lang yung best ko…si lendle…ayun…si hana kas andyan lang parati…i’m just thankful for having these two wonderful people that can see me through everything that i’m going through…at gaya nga ng sinabi ko sila lang yung mga tao na hindi ako sinaktan…

kumplikado talaga ako ngayon…sobra…hindi ko na lama kung ano yung direksyon ko, wala akong magawa..nakakainis….nakakaiyak…ayun…sna lang maayos ko pa lahat lahat ng ito…kahit di na para sa kin kahit para sa mga taong mahal ko na lang…

mamimiss ko na lahat ng toh…hehe…

well, it was a really roller coaster ride since the day we had an argument… but the good thing is that we both learned our lessons well… i learned that keeping secrets wont last (of course someday it would be known), and telling your significant other your business wont hurt, even if it involves your past. well its his choice if he would understand or not, but being honest is the most courageous thing you could do and just face the consequences in line with every act that we do…

that’s it!…

one side of the story: i have talked to stan…the boy form the past…(i just put it here for emphasis)…it’s really awkward talking to someone that became a big part of your life and shattered your world…but as they say HATE IS EASY BUT GIVING FORGIVENESS TAKES COURAGE…and i am glad that i’m already giving it…LOL…(assassination starts in just a matter of years…XD)

its also the start of my duty…a few bigger steps and i am really close to my dream…just 2 years to go and i will become a nurse…yey! 

hmmm…i’m going to miss my life, super busy na kasi….

" kaya kong mag-isa…kaya ko kahit wala ka…kayang sabihin ng isip ko, pero hindi kailanman ng puso ko…dahil hindi magwawakas yung pag-ibig ko…kailan ba tama ang maiwan, kailan ba hindi magiging masakit ang mawalan…kailan ba ko mabubuhay uli…"

hindi ko alam kung paano na yung bukas ko eh…ang hirap naman…ang tanga ko amp…lahat na lang ng ginagawa hindi iniisip eh…kasalanan ko lahat…

lahat ng sakit bumalik…kahit anong gawin ko hindi matatanggal yun…siguro nga lahat to nasa plano…pero amp na plano yan…hindi ko maintindihan…kelangan ganito?

hindi ko na alam kung paano ko sisimulan uli eh…kahit kasi anong gawin kong pikit tuloy lang yung luha…ang hirap naman o…ganun naman dapat diba…kelangan may matutunan…

pero babalik ako…alam ko babalik ako…kukunin ko uli yung buhay ko…sana walang mabago dun sa pagmamahal…kahit yun na lang, sana di mabago ng panahon na mawawala ako…kasi sya yun taong bumuo dun sa puso ko (amp ang lalim)…sya din yung sumira…ngayon di ko na alam kung paano ko bubuuin uli…

hehe…i just cant sleep…hehe…tommorow is the distribution of cards…too nervous of the results of the sleepless nights, of the fights, of the evrythings…hehe…

well, lets just go to the point…

i have nothing to say, but there is this song in my head,,,that keeps playing…hehe…LSS ang tawag nila dun noh… ito yun…nandun ito sa profile ko eh…

TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR by TAYLOR sWIFT…

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see
That I want and I’m needing everything that we should be
I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she’s got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it’s so damn funny
That I can’t even see anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can’t breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She’d better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I’ll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do
He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough
And he’s all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see.

ayan, just change the drew…put the name of the guy you wnt to put…but i love the lyrics…yup..i love it… hehe…but i dont know who’s drew…

i miss my twin….sana makalabas tayo sa 29…samahan mo ako sa enrollement…kaw magbayad…haha…joke…

yung ice tea di ko kakalimutan yun…hehe…

i will now try to sleep…

The story of a love story… created by ailyn december 12, 2006

PERO FOR OTHERS IT’S A MERELY NICE STORY    TAKE TIME TO READ!!!!   

Kasi po ako si Lyn kagagaling ko lang sa break-up na sumira talagah ng
mundo koh,,as in suprah!!!!Alam ko naman eh,,,hindi ako dapat umasa na
lahat mag-wowork out para sa min ni Rommel,,,Kasi pareho kaming Honor
students ng klase,,,were always onto our studies,,,kala ko nun’ kahit
ganun magtatagal pa rin kami pero nagkamali ako,,,hindi ko alam na all
this time he’s planning to break-up with meh,,,alam nyo nai-marriage
booth pa kami nun’,,,bago ang break-up scheme,,,It alaways been a
perfect match,,,we shared the same thoughts,,,sa jeep nga eh ang
pinaguusapan namin tungkol sa academics,,,akalain nyo yun,,,may sarili
kaming lesson sa jeep,,,with matching reading and open the module in
chem pah,,,At saka sumasakay pa kami ng pagkalayo-layo nun para lang
mag-kasama pa akmi ng matagal,,, Kami rin ang tinaguriang LOVERS IN
PARIS sa school namin,,,AKO SI VIVIAN SIYA NAMAN SI CARLO,,,kaya lang
ewan koh bah,,,things didn’t work out,,,sabi pa nya sa kin nun’ PARANG
DESTINY AH,,,KAKLASE KITAH NUNG GRADE 6 TAPOS PAREHO PALA TAYONG MAY
CRUSH SA ISA’T ISA TAPOS IT’S BEEN THREE YEARS NAGING TAYO PA
RIN,,,DESTINY ATAH,,,Pero ang totoo WE ARE DESTINED TO HURT EACH
OTHER,,,Dumating yung araw na kinatatakutan koh,,,HIS FIRST APPROACH
WAS TO INITIATE A COOL-OFF,,,kasi lam nyo pag mag-peperiodical exam sa
min,,,NAG-COCOOL-OFF kaming dalawa to concentrate more on our own
business,,,kaya kala ko as usual pa rin yun,,,kaya lang hindi
pala,,,natapos ang periodical exam namin tapos ayun after 1 week,,,nag
initiate na siya ng confrontation,,,kala ko noon magbabalikan na ulit
kami pero hindi na pala,,,And you know what HE HAD BEEN REHEARSING THE
LINES HE WILL SAY TO ME THAT DAY SEVERAL TIMES NAH,,,Then that day had
come,,,todo smile pa ko nun’,,,pero alam nyo approach nya agad
ganitoh,,,"LYN WALANG IYAKAN NGAYON HAHA,,," Then ayun nah,,,nagsimula
na syang magsalitah,,,itoh ang words na sinabi nyah,,,"LYN WAG MONG
ISIPIN NAH HINDI KITA MAHAL,,,MAHAL KITAH KAYA GAGAWIN KO ITOH,,,KASI
AYOKONG DUMATING YUNG ARAW NA MASASAKTAN KA NG SOBRA KAYA GAGAWIN KO
ITOH,,,ANO LYN NAGEGETZ MO NA BAH YUNG GUSTOH KO IPARATING???(Alam ko
na nun na gustoh nga nya makipag-break),,,ALAM MO LYN,,,MARAMI PA
TAYONG DAPAT GAWIN,,,MGA RESPONSIBILIDAD SA PAMILYA AT KAIBIGAN LALO NA
SA STUDIES,,,KAILANGAN KO MUNANG AYUSIN YUNG MGA DAPAT KONG GAWIN SA
BUHAY KO,,,PARA SA HULI WALA NA AKONG IINTINDIHIN,,,LAHAT AY MAAYOS NA
PARA SA KIN,,,PARA SA ATIN,,,KUNG IKAW PA RIN YUNG LYN NA NAKILALA KOH
DATIH,,,BABALIKAN KITAH PROMISE,,,WAG MO LANG IISIPIN NA HINDI KITAH
MAHAL,,,MAHAL NA MAHAL KITAH,,,MGA BATAH PA TAYO MARAMI PANG DAPAT
GAWIN AT AYUSIN,,MARAMING OPPURTUNIDAD,,,BASTAH ISIPIN MO LANG NA HINDI
KITAH IIWAN,,,AT MAG-KAIBIGAN PA RIN NAMAN TAYO EH,,," Yun yung mga
sinabi nya,,,wla akong magawa nun kundi umalis na lang ng nakangiti
hiding all the tears behind that smile,,,at yun yung huling ngiti ko sa
kanyah,,,Halos bagsakan ng langit at lupa ang mundo ko nun,,,pero anong
magagawa koh dibah,,,wala na natapos na lang ng ganun yun,,,For 5
months I can’t accept the fact na iniwan na nya akoh,,,Kasi i still
hold on to his promise na babalikan nya akoh,,,Umabot pa sa point na
tinanong ko sa kanya kung may kailangan pa akong asahang babalik sa
kin,,, alam nyo ang sagot nya dun’ MERON PA KAYA LANG HINDI MUNA
NGAYON,,,Nag-usap ulit kami with that topic,,,nagulat ako sa nakaharap
kong Rommel nun’,,,nakakatakot na siya,,,alam nyo bah bungad nya sa kin
"Ano nanaman ba ang problema hah?!!! Ano nanaman tong naririnig
koh?!!!" wala na akong nagawa nun kundi tumahimik na lang muna at
sinabi ko yung part koh na kailanman hindi ko nasabi sa kanyah…Pero
ang tanging nasagot nya sa lahat "ITUON MO YUNG ATAENSYON MO SA IBANG
BAGAY,,,WAG MUNA SA GANYAN,,,KASI HINDI PA ITOH ANG TAMANG PANAHON PARA
DYAN…" Nung sinabi nya yun bumagsak uli yung mundoh koh,,,Sabi ko sa
sarili koh mukhang wala na talagang babalik na Rommel,,, PERO I’VE
LEARNED LIFE MUST GO ON,,,TAMA SIYA MARAMING OPPURTUNITIES SA HARAP
KOH,,,AND HINDI SA NAGKAMALI DUN’,,,AT TULUYAN KO NANG NATANGGAP SA
SARILI KOH NA HINDI NA TALAGAH PWEDE NA WALA NA TAGAH SI ROMMEL SA
BUHAY KOH,,,

Then came one guy,,,SI STAN,,,Na-meet ko sya sa isang club na
kinabibilangan koh,,,It’s our election of officers,,,na-elect ako as
president,,,then I initiate the votation for other positions
available,,,Then nagpakilala muna syempre ang lahat,,,tapos ayun
votation nah,,,Ininominate si stan as SECRETARY,,,pero hindi
nanalo,,,TAPOS P.R.O pero TALO PA RIN,,,TAPOS TREASURER TALO PA
RIN,,,AY NAKUHH,,,alam nyo bah,,,ako yung nag-nonominate sa kanya dun
sa pangalawa at pangatlong pagkakataon,,,kasi he seemed to be
recognizable to my senses,,,Pero sa hinbdi nga sya manalonalo,,,BUT FOR
THE SAKE OF THE LAST POSITION IBOBOTO KO NA ULI SYA,,,IT’S THE PEACE
OFFICER POSTION,,,SA WAKAS NANALO DIN SYA,,,I didn’t expect na from
that time we first met,,,there came one FOREVER,,,We bacame friends at
first,,,it became a habit na that the officers will always come to the
library at lunch time to do the clippings and assist our beloved
librarian,,,FROM THERE CAME ONE FRIENDSHIP THAT SEEMED TO BE
PERFECT,,,Pero syempre madami munang nagyayari,,,andyan yung
nagkayayaan sa McDo,,,tapos nagsimula na ngang magkaroon ng issue na
crush ko sya,,,aba!!!akalain nyong totoo,,,ito yung magandah dun kahit
na alam nya na crush ko sya eh,,,hindi nya koh iniiwasan tapos mas
naging malapit pa kami sa isa’t isa,,,ayan nah ang McDo ay
umasenso,,,naging Robinson’s Mall na,,,unang movie namin eh D
ANOTHERS,,,friends pa lang kami nun,,,hayyy,,,dumami pa yung pinanood
namin nun’,,,hanggang sa dumating yung,,,YUNG BIRTHDAY KOH,,,Anak ng
tinapay na birthday yan oh,,,sa dami nang inimbitah ko n 7 tao,,,alam
nyo bah kung anong nangyari sa anim nun,,,yung 2 umuwi ng
probinsya,,,yung 1 may lakad kasmaa yung gf nya,,,yung 2 my family
affairs,,,at ang masaklap yung 1 na-holdap pa bago kami magkikitah
lahat,,,and guess what yung natirang isa nun si STAN,,,Pero bago kami
nagkasama sangkatutak na tinik muna dinaanan koh noh!!!!! Dahil sa ang
tagal nya dumating ayun na-holdap na yung isang kasama namin,,,tapos
nagkabasa-basa pa ako sa ulan dahil sa hinanap ko sya sa mga computer
shop na pinupuntahan nya,,,pero wla akong nakitang stan,,,anak ng
tinapay yan,,,ako na lang yun mag-isang nag-aantay sa kanyah,,,hindi ko
nah natiis,,,pumuntah na ako sa harap ng bahay nila,,,and fortunately
nakasalubong ko yung katulong nila,,,hayyyyy,,,relieved na ako nun kasi
nandun nga sya sa loob ng bahay nya,,,syempre sa asar ko sa kanya
nasihgawan ko sya nung nakitah koh,,,pero syempre,,,naayos din
namin,,,natuloy ang lakad,,,sa SM MANILA kami nun,,,pumuntah ako ng SM
MANILA ng Basang basa yung dulo ng pantalon koh,,,dahil nabasa ng
lintik na ulan sa kahahagilap sa kanyah,,,paanong di ko sya patatawarin
eh on the way he always says I’m Sorry at saka Nagpapatawa pa
sya,,,Nanood kami ng THE PERFECT MAN yung kay Hilary Duff,,,Kain tapos
uwi na,,,Dami nyang kwento nung araw na yun,,,That seemed the perfect
day of my life,,,,but it didn’t came in to me na magiging kami,,,as in
more than friends,,,Kasi galing pa siyang Mindanao,,,Ako laking Maynila
kaya i expected na i can’t cope up with the culture na kinagisnan
nya,,,but I’m wrong,,,Nung pag-uwi ko nung labas namin binuksan ko na
yung cell koh,,dahil nga nalimutan ko nag buksan kaninang kasama ko
sya,,,There came in 3 new messages,,,2 from my friends saying sorry
kasi nga hindi sila nakasama,,,then the other 1 came to an
unrecognizable number,,,Then when I opened it,,,it’s from stan,,,ewan
ko kung bakt pero bumilis yung tibok ng puso koh,,,When I opened sabi
sa message "Si stan toh. Musta ka na?" syempre gabi na nung nabuksan ko
yung cell koh kaya alam ko bukas pa nya mababasa pero nag-text pa rin
ako,,,After nun,,,marami nang sumunod,,,hanggang sa nagsabi sya
na,,,crush nya koh,,,alam naman daw nya na hindi ako maniniwala pero
sinasabi pa rin nya,,,tapos ayun,,,nanligaw na,,,EVERYTHING WENT WELL
IT IS EVERYTHING I WANTED,,,A GUY THAT WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE FOR
ME,,,WHENEVER I SEEKED FOR COMPANY,,,AND A GUY THAT WOULD LOVE ME FOR
WHAT I AM AND FOR EVERYTHING,,,Pero ayaw sa kanya ng mga friends
koh,,,anong magagwa we can’t please everybody,,,halos lahat
tumututol,,,exept my parents,,,at first oo,,,pero at last pumayg din
sila sa situation,,,Pinaglaban ko sya sa mga kaibigan koh,,,at sa
ngayon naayos ko na yung FEUD between me and my friends,,,tapos
dumating yung araw na tinext ko uli si rommel,,,pero ang sinabi ko
lang,,,"MEL,,,THANKS FOR MAKING ME A BETTER PERSON THAT I AN
BE,,,TINURUAN MO KASI AKONG LUMABAN,,,TINURUAN MO AKONG HARAPIN ANG
KATOTOHANAN AT KUNG PAANO MASAKTAN AT IWAN,,,THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES
WEVE SHARED AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE,,,YOU’VE BECOME A PART OF MY LIFE AND
THANKS FOR STEPPING IN,,,GOD BLESS,,," (tinext ko itoh nung dapat
mag-aaniversary kami kaya nga lang nag-break na kami eh),,,tapos isa
pang quote yung finorward ko nun’,,,"INIWAN AKO NG MAHAL KO,,,PERO
HINABOL KO SYA,,,PERO DUMATING YUNG ARAW NA TUMIGIL AKO SABI NYA,,,BKIT
K TUMIGIL??? AT ANG NASABI KO LANG,,,HNDI AKO TUMIGIL NATAUHAN
LANG!!!!…."
Tapos then Rommel and I became friends, tapos syempre friends na alng,
nagkaroon siya ng dalwang break-up from 2 girls in the present time in
college.

Samantala 1 year and 1 month na kami NI STAN NGAYON,,,GOING
STRONG,,,ALAM NYO,,,WITH STAN I NEED NOT TO BE PERFECT,,,I CAN BE WHO I
AM,,,HINDI YUNG LYN NA DAPAT PARATING NUMBER 1 SA KLASE,,,HNDI YUNG LYN
NA EXCELLENT,,,WITH HIM I CAN CLEARLY SEE MY WORLD AND FACE IT IN A NEW
WAY,,,I LEARNED A LOT FROM HIM,,,NATUTUNAN KO SA KANYAH NA TO TAKE A
BREAK FROM THE BUSY WORLD OF OUR SCHOL,,,TO TAKE A BREAK WITH MY
BOOKS,NOTE BOOKS AND BALLPEN,,,MASAYAH KAMI SA KUNG ANO NA ANG RELATION
NAMIN NGAYON,,,IT SEEMED FOREVER FOR US,,, AND NAREALIZE KOH NAH,,,
HE’S EVERTHING I EVER WANTED FOR ALL OF MY LIFE,,,AND CRAZY TO SAY BUT
WERE PLANNING FOR THE MERE FUTURE,,,KUNG PAANO KUNG GANITO NA YUNG
SITWASYON? ANONG GAGWIN NATIN PAG GANUN,,GANITO GANYAN???!!!!…AND I
CAN SAY NA MAHAL KO SYA TALAGAH,,,AND IT WILL ALWAYS BE,,

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!NATAPOS MO!!!!!!!!!!!

ano na ngayon?!!! march 14, 2008….uhmmm things just change and people change… haha…nakkatawa lang nung nahalungkat ko to…hehe…i just realized how lucky i am right now with a new person i am sharing my life with…i guess somethings wont really workout sometimes…but it has certain reason…and i’m glad i saw that reason in a person i least expected…i am just happy right now with the choices i made…i should be and i will…^^

SUMMER!!!!2008!!!! A NEW LIFE AND ANOTHER NEW STORY…C=

hmmm…our finals is already finished…yehey!!!i surpassed the bar exams…wahehe… everything just gets better and better each day and i must say that our situation is really improving.. on my own opinion yun…  at least less mga away na… wuh! naku baka mabati naman…its just too good to be true to find someone that is the same at my wave length…siguro may mga bagay pa din na di mapagkasunduan pero…i can comprehend everything i guess… its just a matter of accepting the things i cannot and to know the certain differences…maybe we are just really starting and we are just trying to be the persons we are ought to be,,,and  as far as i could see we are really ok right now..we are in a state of patching things up and being happy with no worries and with no uncertainties…

another part of my story today?

hmmm… ill miss certain people from my batch… wahhh…naku panibagong adjustment nanaman ito… pero sobrang thankful talaga ako sa mga bago kong naging friends…ive never known carzy guys like them in my past batch… they made my stay in st.paul-2nd sem worthwhile… they just proven to me that first impression really doesn’t last, and what people may say are not really who persons  maybe… we jst need to sit back and talk with them to know that they could be your bestfriends the whole time…

i’ll miss all the memories of you guys, namely, MICS(kalma lang pagminsan,kaya natin to), ANGE(i’ll miss those cute smile…blue…), TAKI(your wisdom makes a difference), DIANA(halimaw ka talaga! idol!!), YZAN(boypren!!ako ang una! XD), KRIZZY (You’ll always be the baby, my daughter), JEMAY (Our lights sponsor, and for the good sense of humor), TANYA (another girl with a good sense of humor), CLAIRE (thanks for the bonding kanina ah, naku isa ka sa mga taong napakabait)…and to people who are not mentioned you really made a special place in my heart kahit na di kayo kasama dito…hehe…

i’ll miss those smiles,, lalo na yung matining na boses ni yzan….yung ingay na ginagawa nila diana sa klase….basta lahat ng mga pinagsamahan mamimiss ko talaga ng sobra…^^ i never felt that i belong to some kinda group this time… thanks guys… i love you and i’ll miss you…

"I shot an arrow into the air,
It fell to earth, I knew not where;
For so swiftly it flew, the sight
Could not follow it in its flight.

I breathed a song into the air,
It fell to earth, I knew not where;
For, who has sight so keen and strong
That it can follow the flight of song?

Long, long afterward, in an oak
I found the arrow, still unbroke;
And the song, from beginning to end,
I found again in the heart of a friend."

para sa mga prof naku magkikita pa naman tayo eh…till the next midterm and finals…till the next bloody exams…XD

ngayon summer na…kahit dalawang linggo lang ang bakasyon…sana ma-enjoy natin with the family and special somebody…just make it worthwhile…

i think need my time to be alone…again…its just gets hard…i dont want to have any regrets…i just want to prove something is still right…i’m just quite puzzled out…didn’t you taught that every time we fix everything in our lives something just comes up and we are gone back to zero… i just want to be happy…that’s all i ever wanted…why can’t i be now?

pressure’s coming all up into my head and into my soul…

too tired and too sad…

but at the end of the day, i just realize my family and he is all i ever got, to turn to…he’s still the one that could make me laugh when things go wrong..he’s just  there..i hope..

"if i never get to heaven then at least i will have known
i had an angel here on earth that I could call my very own
and if this world should end tomorrow, this much i know is true i found my piece of heaven the day that i found you"

Lately i’ve been thinking ’bout the things that we’ve been through
And i don’t know if i’d be here
If not for you
I had to take a little time to try to work things out
And you should know that i have never meant to let you down

‘Cause i, i.. wanna tell you that i’m sorry
and i, i…
even when i’m not givin’ enough and i’m takin’ to much,
you’re still there for me
even when i got nothing at all
and i’m ready to fall
you’re still there for me

even when i can’t be there for you

Sometimes i know i can be so hard to understand

Even when i’m lost you saw me who i really am
Like with me it haven’t always been an easy ride

But because of you i’ve learn to loose my selfish part

it must have been real love…